Monday, January 18, 2010

Tired.

My boy doesn't like to sleep. Well, apparently, that's not entirely true. Apparently, the days he is at daycare-preschool (3 days per week right now during my slow work season, aka, winter) he can't wait to get into his cot at nap time. He is the first one in and the last one out. He is a power napper. At daycare. That is probably because the other days of the week, he is WIDE AWAKE all day and Will. Not. Sleep. Not for anything. And he has this thing about 5:30 a.m. Yes, somewhere between 5 a.m. and 6 a.m. is where he awakens. Probably because he is power napping at daycare 3 days a week. I don't know. I am so tired right now, I feel like my eyes might bleed. It doesn't help any that I've been sick as a dog all weekend with a really bad cold (boy am I glad I got that seasonal flu shot--hope that saves me from what could be worse than a bad cold). Also, I'm nearing the start of my third trimester. And, while I can think of very little to complain about regarding this pregnancy (I confess, it has been pretty darn easy, so far, knock wood) I am tired. I'm carrying around an extra 25 or 30 pounds I'm not used to and, you know, I'm growing a human. So, I'm starting to get really, really tired. Like. just-start-crying-in-the-middle-of-the-cereal-aisle-for-no-good-reason-tired. Yeah.

So I wish my kid would sleep.

I have come to the conclusion that our son and Mister and I are not energetically matched. I know HM is a BOY. And he's two (almost 3) so by definition he is high-energy. But, I'm talking about something more than that. I believe that we are all born with an innate sort of 'energy-personality' type. For instance, Mister and I are fairly matched energetically. We are both somewhat homebodies, even though we do enjoy being social. We just have to remind ourselves that we actually enjoy being social and then force ourselves to go out and do it. Otherwise, we might never leave the house except for work and trips to the grocery store. We like relative quiet. Before we had kids we relished rainy weekends where we could pull the couch out into a bed, watch movies for hours, and eat popcorn and be totally lazy. We both seem to really operate best when we've had at least (AT LEAST) 8 hours of sleep. 9 or 10 would be preferable.

It's not that we're lazy. Though it might sound that way. We both work really hard at our careers. We both do a lot of work around the house. We just operate at a sort of low frequency most of the time and it takes a lot longer for us to recharge our batteries, so to speak.

Our son, on the other hand, I believe, is just one of those people who is the complete opposite. (Good for him!) It will serve him well in life, I think.

But it is exhausting.

I totally don't know what I am going to do when the baby comes? I'm sort of freaking out. I'm so so so tired NOW, what am I going to do when I'm up every two hours every night to feed a screaming baby? Help....

5 comments:

JJ said...

ACK! I totally have been remiss in checking on you--and I just let out the biggest GASP when I saw your ticker--CONGRATS, sweetie!!

Expectant Duck said...

WOW I lost you for a while (well honestly I dropped off the face of the planet cause I just ye know had a hard time). Congrats on the pregnancy!
duck

Anonymous said...

Hello,
I came across your blog looking for hope on my situation. I'm 33. Was just diagnosed with a thyroid problem (TSH was high) and very high fSH (3 day was 21).

We lost our first pregnancy last year to a partial molar pregnancy.

I saw that you got pregnant with high fsh. Please, can you give me some hope? I also saw that you found an RE that gave you some hope. Can you tell me who that was? I'm looking for the best RE for me.

Please, if you are willing to chat a bit by email, my email is wrenlklein at gmail dot com.

Thanks so much.

Frenchie said...

Dear Anonymous--
Thank you for your comment and I will send you an email as well. I would like to respond here incase anyone else may find this helpful. I was dx with high FSH at age 34 (fsh around 18) and told I only had a 1% chance of ever conceiving. To make a long story short, I believe the key to my "miracle" pregnancy was getting my thyroid treated. 4 months after I started taking thyroid medication I was pregnant quite by surprise! I also had a lap to remove mild endo right around the same time I started the thyroid tx.

If you haven't already, go to this site for support with high FSH;
http://www.network54.com/Forum/209394/

Ask around on the board (and on the pregnant despite high fsh board) and ask about thryoid--I think you will find a lot of women have both high fsh and thyroid issues. I believe there is a strong link and I am PISSED that the medical community seems to totally overlook this.

There is hope and you have age on your side at 33.

BTW I will be 38 next month. FWIW
(((HUGS))))

Kami said...

I hear you! LB doesn't seem to need the sleep I need (adjusted for babyhood). Both her dad and her donor need less sleep than me . . .makes me wonder.

I also wonder if it would have been easier to keep up with her if I was 22 instead of 42.