Monday, November 12, 2007

Fertility Aside...

Fertility and procreation, obviously, are not my strong-suits.

But, I have let that rule how I have felt about myself entirely--for too long. When I think about myself, it's all I think about. When I look at myself it is all that I see.

It's time for the evil reign of Infertility to loosen its grip on me.

I have many other gifts. And, have had many other accomplishments in my life (other than bearing children). Here is what I am able to come up with right now. I hope to keep adding to the list.

- I have a way with animals. Don't know why or how exactly, but they seem to be at ease around me.

- I have a beautiful singing voice. (IMHO)

- I'm a pretty darn good cook. (When I feel like it).

- I am a very talented floral designer. I have made hundreds of Brides (among other people) very happy, as a result of my talent. Also, my work has been featured on two wedding-related cable tv shows, and in probably 10 or more magazines.

- I make a mean cocktail.

- I have a quick, and sometimes kooky, sense of humor. I can make people laugh.

- For some reason, my son's birth-mother saw some quality in me (and Mister) that she thought was unique and special and good and real enough to entrust the life of her child--FOREVER--to us.

- I think I am doing a pretty darn good job (so far) of being a mom. I'd like to think so, at least.

So, fertility aside, I've got some pretty good abilities, wouldn't you say? You could even say I've been blessed.

Now, if I can just convince myself of that on a daily basis!


Kami said...

Good for you! I hope it felt good to write up this post.

The Town Criers said...

You do kick ass. I think it's important for all of us to read this and remember our special qualities.

Tracy said...

I found this because of Mel...LOVE it. I posted something similar today after a dream I had last night.

I read somewhere that you can mourne the "one that got away" or other losses in life, but don't let it define you. For too long I've been letting this IF crap define who I am and dictate my emotions. Enough.

You sound like a wonderful person. Congrats on being a mom.

I think I'll take your lead and start patting my own back about non-procreation type attributes more often.