Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Pointless?

5 years. 1 pregnancy. 1 miscarriage. 

And now, one laperoscopy which resulted in doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for me.

Yes, they found endo. 

But barely any.

They removed what was there. But it hasn't made a difference in my INability to get preggo. (As I sit here on CD1. Again).

And guess what? Apparently, my horrible cramps have not been caused by endo but by some other condition that they can't do A THING about. (Something about the way my uterine lining grows....I dunno). 

So, no answers about what's causing my infertility (we're just back to the drawing board with me having craptastic eggs).

No change in my ability to get preggo. (Even Doctor Wonderful said in our follow-up that I'm no better off. Exactly where I started.)

AND! No pain relief.

Hahahahahahah! 

I'm sick of reading Infertility sites/blogs/articles/message boards where women tell their success stories. Everyone seems to find their silver bullet:

1. I stopped drinking coffee!
2. I took XYZ supplement!
3. After my HSG I got pregnant!
4. Got preggo after a lap!
5. Stopped eating X or ate more Y!
6. Started running!
7. Stopped vigorous exercise!
8. Gained weight!
9. Lost weight!
10. Went on vacation with hubby!
11. Wheat grass!
12. Got thyroid treated!

And my personal favorite....

13. We just "gave up"/were between treatments/started the adoption process/etc.. and....
BOOM! SURPRISE! WE GOT PREGNANT WITHOUT EVEN TRYING!

I can't take it any more.